Don’t Cry? At least don’t laugh

Once your thoughts get shallow, your feelings will be loosed. You will lose your senses and you start seeing everything as fun. They taught us to laugh, be ourselves, self-confidence, self-indulgence, not care what others say, etc. They made us selfish people. There are many people dying in this World without us know it. Even we know, we don’t care any more. Poverty, starving, killing, dying, pain, etc. as long as we don’t feel them, lets ignore people who have.

What happend to us? Why did we become so indifferent, cruel and lonely? More importantly why did we forget the beauty behind tears? I’ve been watching news and they are people in Syria being killed ruthlessly and I am having a breakfast while  watching news, feeling not enough remorse and I am still able to call myself human.

We cannot take actions any more. We don’t want to disrupt our comfort and we ignore all these happenings in a cold blooded way. Not our actions but our minds are oppressed by media, governments and companies. Everything around us pushes us to self-indulgence state.

Especially, in United States, what I found out so far that people want to label everything as fun. Students don’t will to do things that don’t have any fun. This is what we teach our kids? Fun all the time? We MUST teach them the hardships of the life and how to deal with them as well as helping each other. Otherwise, they find fun within alcohol, drugs and illicit relationships let alone opposite sex but same sex. They should know exactly why we are here. They should know how to take responsibility, and they are responsible for each action they take. We don’t become soil after we die. How come you think this life is so meaningless  as you think we are going to be soil and nothing after death. All these great faculties inside humans, all these perfect and amazing materials around us, you think they are all there for nothing. Do you think all these occurrences in this universe are for nothing? Don’t devalue yourself like this and look through your material opinions and try to see other and real side of everything.

I don’t feel like human anymore. I feel wasted by all these economy, politics, desires, etc.

Why are Muslims so separated?

As a Muslim, I’ve been asking this question for many years, “Why are we so separated?”. We believe in the same God and love and follow the same Prophet (be peace upon Him). Why are blaming each other for different practicing of Islam? Don’t we know that this religion is a religion of peace,repose, brotherhood and tolerance. We know it because this what Prophet Mohammed taught us. He taught us not to kill but love and tolerate, tighten the bonds between Muslim brothers and sisters.

There are many Muslim countries in the World and I don’t think we are really getting along well with each other. There is something which pushes us away from each other and I cannot name it. Power, money, lust or something even deeper than these basic feelings. Let alone other religion followers, we should even first fix the bonds amongst us. It seems we try to justify our way of Islam is correct and ignore the others but we also ignore the words of Prophet Mohammed, “Variations amongst my ummah are hayr (beneficial).” but we rather cast them out and label them “infidels”,”wicked” or “deviants”. Who do we think we are by labeling people like this? We don’t have any rights or permissions to decide whether they are believers or unbelievers. Deciding who is believer or unbeliever belongs to Allah (cc).

Of course, there are some many other factors as well for our disorganization. We forgot our roots. We forgot what made us, our culture, our ancestors and moral values. We turned our faces to West and wanted to be like them even though we were so different. Lets admit, west was suffering in their own World when Muslims were reaching peaks in both science and religious studies. Muslims first invented Algebra, the first step for computer science, etc. and now looking at our current place, I am feeling a great sorrow why we happend to be like this. Poverty, injustice, lack of religious life, war, fight and many other problems are breaking our back bones and we don’t have enough strength to stand up any more. When we have some power to exert, Western governments descend upon us and used up our last strength and never let us move up again. If Muslims rise back again, the balance of current status quo will change and West may lose their power to Muslims again which is obviously undesirable.  Who wants to lose his slaves right?

I am not created to live a happy life all the time. Even though everything goes pretty fine, I should have to feel the pain of others and help them. This should be my sadness and sorrow. I am not here to collect assets as I won’t be able to take them with me to the grave but my good deeds. My good deeds depend on what I do for the sake of Allah. So even Muslims get stronger again, it doesn’t mean they have rights to oppress others and do as they want, we Muslims must only do whatever Allah wants. We must lose ourselves in Allah’s existence. We should be able to cry for the others, even they believe other religions or atheists. We should be able to because we know what they are missing not believing in Allah. The eternal sin of unbelieving. You may ask why it is eternal sin?

Satan, our wicked-side and our human instincts won’t let us be truly devoted to Allah but we should try hard. This is the only way to find true happiness and internal peace.

Turkey, France and Armenia

First of all, I like to thank to Turkiye for its brave and peaceful stance against the latest developments on legislation issue in France about Armenians genocide. And second, France has proved once again that they are not a free and rational country any more but a puppet of  irrational, bigoted politicians and some rich people. And Armenians, you haven’t desired any peace so don’t expect any peace from now on because you don’t deserve it. Your ideas are all ill-biased and don’t have any tenable basis for your genocide sentiment. You very well know how many innocent Turkish people were killed in your bloody hands even thought you were trusted by Ottoman people. But you showed you are unreliable, untrustworthy and I am feeling pity for the people whom trust you in that matter these days.

I am not racist and won’t be racist by any means. By saying country names, I mean people who did what I told above. Of course there are righteous Armenians, Frenchs, etc. out there but they have to rise their voices against these demolishing actions against peace and friendship of these different ethnics.  This genocide bill won’t bring anything beneficiary to indigenous Armenians but some ill-intentioned rich people who try to corrupt  the politicians and authorities to retain their power and wealth. All these efforts are not for innocent Armenians folks but only themselves and you and your nation are only a tool for their aims. Same mentality killed many people back then now killing friendship took so many years to be built in this age.

As a Turkish person, I always pursued peace and mutual benefits of each and every country. As our Vice President Mr. Erdogan apologized  to Dersim folks (it wasn’t a genocide but excessive force), I believe if we carry out a genocide against Armenians, we are humble enough to make another apology any time but the official and legal documents show that we didn’t hold such an event in our history but we know how gruesome some Armenians were by killing innocent women, children and  old people and I am wondering how Armenians will repent of  their these defiled behaviors.

France, such a long history with genocides, colonizations and lies. I wonder whether current France remembers how Ottoman saved their kings with one letter to Spain kingdom? I bet they don’t because they don’t want to. Sarkozy, a person who feels outcast due to increasing popularity of Turkiye and Mr. Erdogan. He loses his power over France’s colonies such as Arab countries and some potential countries after Arab spring. Mr. Erdogan increased his popularity amongst Libya, Yemen, Egypt and many others where Sarkozy expected to be welcomed like Kings and Saviors but he was surprised because all Muslims know how liar and reptile he is. They don’t want to be ruled by Western countries any more, they don’t want to live Western lives but their own old lives in which not power but justice and rights are accounted.

Western knows one thing, power. Even Darwins depends on power of creatures. If you are powerful, you have right to be alive.Justice, human rights come after power. That’s why France, like many other western countries, decided to colonize African countries. They showed these colonized people as savages who need more modern civilizations such as France. Settlers were always right and powerful, natives were poor and primitives and the settlers taught them how to become like them but the natives couldn’t become like them because they were different ground up and they envied their masters life style, wealth and etc. So France never just extorted their natural resources but stole their moral values, their rights and their beliefs, their most important things, their way of life. By doing this, they killed many natives, many many natives, that was a huge number after that you may not even know which number proceeds it.

If France checks into their history, they will see how many bleeding people they left behind. For example, Algeria. Over 1 million Algerians were killed throughout the history of France. French soldiers invaded this peaceful country without any reason, colonized them, taught their religion, language and cultural values and raped their women, killed their kids and elders and utilized their soldiers and got many of them killed in their own wars and they don’t even remember it but I bet Algerians remember it as if it happened last year.

And today, they are giving us human rights lesson, a lesson they failed. A lesson France prepared its content and even they failed with it. I don’t like to compare Ottoman era with France because they were at entirely different levels. Ottoman Empire was an empire of peace, serenity and justice in contrast to France that doesn’t even know what these words mean. That’s why greedy and poor and ferocious crusades from different western countries including France attacked Ottoman lands, because they wanted this wealth, health and human rights albeit they  didn’t have any of those.

France politicians are failing their citizens and it seems they will keep failing them again over time. This is a not end for Turkiye but big abyss for France and its people, because people will start asking why you care Armenian so-called genocide although you carried out even worse history with full of genocide, colonization, etc. Why don’t you face your own fate and history? Why are you using this sensitive and biased and distorted statements for your own politics benefits? France, without answers of all these questions will be remembered as country in which freedom of speech won’t take its place ever again and people’s thoughts are controlled and steered with corrupted politicians and laws.

Thanks France for showing your true identity for our next generations, I believe they will have more goodies to say for you.

– Tarik Guney

Miffed or Angry

Recently, I had to mull over these two feelings inside me. When some one does something I would’t like, do I feel miffed or angry? To me, miffed and offended accordingly stop talking to some one for a while till he apologies is kind of childish reaction. Because I know this won’t solve the problem and each side may wait for an apology and this leads to infinite loop. But if I stop talking to some one, that means there are not goodness any more for me in talking to him. So this is a way to stop continually worsening the situation for both me and him.

I do get angry but I believe I can somehow handle my anger and not put it out with improper behaviors. We are all grown-ups. Some people might think I am offended and ceased talking but this thought is totally misunderstood. I will speak of course but not like before. The relationship with the person offended me takes a whole new level in which talking is considered more formal and decent but distant.

I remember a guy in my previous workplace. Whenever whatever I asked to him, he was always using a mocking way to explain the answers.  This wasn’t the way I liked and I knew I would never change him and impose what’s right. That was the way he was communicating and I didn’t like the way. I didn’t cease talking to him but I ceased asking question to him. I was avoiding his improper side by not doing the actions that temper it.

Am I not helping the people to mend their behaviors?  To warn people, you and him/her must feel close enough to each other. Most of the people don’t like taking advice from random people. You can help people as much close as you are to them. So when you try to help them, you might worsen the situation even more. So I must know where to stop and where to proceed.

I know handling people will start from handling your own feelings. Once you can control your feelings, such as your face state once you are angry or ashamed etc. this will help you not expose your current feelings to others and that gives you more control over the situation. Even slight exposition of feelings ruins everything and distracts others and this needs practice for sure. But why do you need such a skill? You need it because you need to look professional and strong in each pixel of your life. There are few people who can truly understand your sincere feelings once they are all exposed. But others might look over you and cast you out gradually due to their lack of understanding of your feelings. AND also your feelings are your privacy and you have to keep them private enough.

Go, get angry but never sob or sulk or offended quickly. But some improper and imprudent actions must have some consequences otherwise the doer won’t understand the result of his actions. You may want to show it, but show it with the righteous and elegant way. Humans are elegant and they deserve elegant answers.

But sometime it is good to show your human side. Yes not matter what you are, eventually you are human and you will end up being taken down by your feelings somewhere deep inside and once this moment comes, you are utterly free to cry out loud in a place where people won’t hear you.

Or maybe…

Cekip Gidebilmek

Bazen cekip gidebilmeli insan. Bakmadan arkasina. Bakmadan bekleyenlere, beklemeden yalan sevgileri. Her gun insanlar ile ugrasiyoruz. Kimilerinin sorunlarini dinliyoruz, kiminlerin hayatlarina sahit oluyoruz. Kimileri arkamizdan bicakliyor, kimileri yollarimiza seriliyor. Ama ben sen cekip gitmek istiyorsun herseyi, herseyleri geride birakip.

Kalp. Insana verilen en derin uzuvlardan birisi. Kalb oyle gucluki acirsa vucut’un her hucresi ortak oluyor bu aciya. Bir gun dost acitiyor kalbi, bir gun esiniz, bir gun kardes. Ama beyin soruyor bir gun, tum sag kalan bilinci ile “Seni acitani neden seviyorsun?”. Kimi kalpler kendisine geliyor bu beklenmedik soru ile. Kimileri ise razi acimaya, anlamiyor esrari kalbin arkasinda. Kalb aslinda kendisini oraya koyani seviyor, sevmek istiyor. Kalb kendisini acitani degil, kendisin devamli yaninda olani istiyor. En guzel sekilde, en narin sekilde kendisi yapani sevmek istiyor. Onu ariyor kalb. Her carpisinda onun adini zikrediyor. Gercek sahibinin eseri oldugunu cok iyi biliyor.

Ama bizler, kainati icine alabilecek bir varliga, minik seyleri acimazsica buyuterek koyuyoruz. Boguluyor, ama artik bagirmiyor zaten duymayanlara. Biz bilmiyoruz ki ama kalb sesler ile degil hisler ile konusuyor bizimle. Hep goremeyenler dendi, ya bunca duymayanlar? Bunca bagirislari kalbin, duymayanlar?

Benim kalbim? Kurtarilmayi bekliyor Yaratani tarafindan. Yada kalbim bahane, bekleyen benim acimasizlar arasindan….

Is Science Enough to be called Educated?

I wonder how many people ask this question “Is science enough to be called educated?”. I’ll give you the answer “No!”. Science is one part of our education system but there are many other fields we should learn and they are social studies, moral values and religion. Without these 3 items, science will only show you how but it will lack the information of why. Today’s world when people are only almost taught science having many difficulties and problems when choosing right and wrong. As they try to explain everything with science, they get stuck when science cannot go any further. They don’t know when science gets stuck, social studies, moral values and religion come into play and you should explain things with these three fields. Religion has many studies which actually contain social studies, moral values. It shows right and wrong with the divine purpose. It explains all the whys and that’s the material for every person needs in this World.

In Turkiye, people need to be taught more social studies. They should understand what makes a society. The mutual respect, mutual understanding and other mutual factors must take places in our lives instead of solving our problems with fight or violence. Science doesn’t explain why you should act in a particular way unless you are not asking “how”. So depending on too much science won’t save us and our future. I believe tomorrow’s super powers will be the ones which pay more attention to social studies. Social studies teach you the ways to rule a society, country and even the World. It is like spending too many hours to become a good computer programmer and everyone wants you but eventually the income you will get is limited regardless how much you work but your boss who might not know anything about computers is making more money than you can imagine. It is pretty same between science and social studies. Science invents new things, and politicians use them in the way they want. Any objection?

People, they are amazing creatures. Once you discover their powers, you will realize they can accomplish many amazing things. Our history shaped up so many times with the willpower humans. They took over countries, they built skyscrapers, they built complex roads, they flew in the sky, they invented fast cars, they crossed giant oceans, etc. But human can be bad. They invented guns, heavy machinery weapons, tanks, bombs, started wars and killed each others, etc. Some people have been studying on how to lead these minds. They’ve been working to find out how to shape people’s minds, how to steer them to one target. And they somewhat became very successful in these studies. They discovered the power lying inside each individual and they know how to control it. That’s the reason why they are powerful today. And they assigned a job to people like us, “learn science, focus on science and if it is possible then memorize the entire periodical table” and have you work for them. They pay you enough money but they earn 100 times more then you maybe.

Education = Social Studies + Moral Values + Science. We don’t have the luxury to compromise any of it for other. Wind won’t help a ship that doesn’t know the route.

– Tarik

Politics and Turks

Like the diverse ethnics in Turkiye, there are many different voters in this country as well:

1. People who believe the ideology of the party they support will truly save Turkiye and contribute to power of it. I trust the sincerity of these people but sometimes they are not pursuing the right ideology anyway. Some of them are uneducated and that’s why they are following the wrong ideologies with sincere feelings.

2. People who know the truth but cannot part off their parties because they think it is somehow betraying act against their parties. They believe they have a deep inner connection and these people will always be there for their parties no matter what the parties do, good or bad. These people won’t be any help to the Country unless the party they support has good trustworthy and hard-working politicians.

3. People who don’t care about the politics and parties but once they are frightened they will vote for which every party the dominant control in that area supports. So they are not really thinking minds but controlled people who don’t know what they are doing will cause to the country’s future. This crowd is not good but bad either. They need someone trustworthy who can lead these weak minds to what’s best.

4. The people who know what to do and which to vote for. They are important because they have a huge potential in the country. These people know what they believe and what to do and how to act upon their beliefs. They don’t pay much attention to the name or history of the parties but what they do. They are not partisans and they are awake and aware of the situation. We need more people like them because they will help the future of this Country.

5. The people who only want power and to be dominant power in the Country. They don’t care any other people and they are completely selfish. They have a way which will only save them and the people who follow them. They want money and power. They talks revenge, grudge to the other people who don’t believe what they believe. It is like they accumulate all the worse deeds inside them and once they get to lose their power for the sake of justice; you see them going crazy and waiting for a right time to take revenge even though they have been wrong since the beginning of time.

So I think these 5 items pretty much explain the voter types in Turkiye. I see most of the voters of AKP in the 4^th item. Because they are coming from different parties and they showed they are not partisans but wanted people who do the job they are given. This voter group is a growing population and they will determine the future of this Country. Of course there are other people defined in other items in this voter population but they are small. There may be some corrupted politicians in AKP but heads are trustworthy and this is what makes this party the biggest party for all these years. They proved they’ve been working since they first got the government privileges and they still working. What would I do if AKP went corrupted? I would change my party and find another party I could put my trust on. Because the only party I care is the future of my Country and my people but as my faithfulness I will be always thankful to the people who carried this country to this better position.

But I think the most diverse voters do belong to CHP. This party has the voters defined in almost all the items above. But the main problem is that the heads of the party is found in the 5^th item. I am saying this with sorrow but CHP and MHP consist of corrupted minds from bottom to up. I am not including all voters though. CHP has the frightened Alevi groups that cannot think of anything but CHP. Even though CHP crushed many Alevi people in the history and frightened them that if Sunni people get the power, they will kill all of you. At first look, you will realize how bullshit this statement is but this is what CHP used for years on Alevi people. Of course they are people who believe CHP is the only solution sincerely but someone has to show them CHP is not the only option and it is not the right option any more. CHP lost their right paths and chose to become a puppet of some deeper rich and powerful people or companies or cults, you name it. Any future for this party? As long as people don’t awake, yes! CHP will consume people’s trusts and keep their current position. People believed because Ataturk first established that party, it must the best party so far. Ataturk established a party doesn’t justify the corrupted actions of current CHP. If you are in believe of this thought, you need to check your mind and thoughts because they must be scattered around and should be put together back again. Today’s CHP is nothing but a recession reason for Turkiye. All they do is to recess this Country and stir up the trouble between people. They chose to be like BDP years ago because they’re the masterminds behind BDP and any other terrorists group and they try to save their butts by slandering other parties and ideologies. Because they know the best defend is to attack and that’s why they are attacking consistently to good works as they haven’t done anything considered good for years and they won’t.  Because they know once all people awake completely, they will see how distorted party CHP is and this might be the end of CHP. And one more thing, no matter what you believe but CHP won’t offer religion freedom. They are all against religion and religion means a threat to these people.

I don’t even consider Mr. Bahceli as a leader and won’t discuss about him here on my blog. MHP was a good party, done many things for this Country but they are bunch of atheist racists right now – I am not talking about the voters here—so Mr. Bahceli doesn’t have any role, he hasn’t had any so far though. Just give him what to read and let him to read from top to bottom. What would you except from a leader wanna-be if he cannot even speak and think what to say?

BDP, I believe they are the yet another art of the master mind behind current CHP. BDP is responsible for killings; CHP is for stealing, corrupting, slandering, blocking all increased growing and etc. So they all have a role in this politic system.

And one word for CHP, please don’t use images.google.com to find evidences to accuse AKP. Using images.google.com is kind of lame and you know it.

– Tarik Guney

Muslims, Evolution and Religion Triangle

Note: This writing may need revision in both grammatically and semantically.

As Muslim and believer of creationism, I sometimes think about evolution as well.  Are we asking to ourselves about what our stance should be? Should we completely deny this theory or partially accept it but before everything we should count in what the main reason why we should deny this theory is? Is it because this theory denies God or there are no significant proofs supporting the existence of it.

If both, then our scientists have to come up with universal proofs and ideas which completely disproof this whole theory and they should bring a completely fresh theory which can describe all these living-beings and it should satisfy both human cognition and heart. Because we know many really smart scientists are working on Evolution and Abiogenesis (which explains first life on the Earth) theories and they declare these theories are explaining many unknowns and helping them to explain previously happened incidents that couldn’t be explained before these theories. Denying all these brains instantly may be problem later on.  I am not saying we should deny or accept these theories but we must come up with something which explains our point of view. Or we can deny only the denying the God part and wait for the other parts become clearer. Maybe later on these theories transform into a way that makes much more sense to all of us and embraces creationism way more.

Believing in God gives us a reason and hope for our final moments. No one wants to be soil after they are buried. We all want to live eternally in a place where we are all happy and in peace. And believing in God also helps science as many theories can be explained with this factor.  Science always tries to explain how but once you start thinking on why then science cannot find proper answer but some gibberish most of the time. But asking “Why” and “How” must be the part of the science otherwise scientists become material puppets and cannot improve their true reasoning capabilities. As we know once we start asking a tiny yet powerful question “Why” at some point all the reasons will end and that ending point will be where science is stuck eternally. I think explaining everything with science devalues this amazingly working factory.  We try to explain everything with something that is a part of everything we try to explain which shows we are ultimately part of the whole system and the grand design. But science resorts to random incidents if it cannot explain the reasons any further. They consider billions of possibilities instead of one obvious possibility. They somehow give a cognitive power to Universe instead of believing the more obvious form of this belief “God”.

So I believe all scientific approaches make far more sense if they are laid on God and what He wants by creating us and sent us down on the Earth. Some wrongly interpreted religious scripts are harming whole religions. People who are not authorities made some wrong comments and some people followed them and they gained some power and they are ruining the religious point of views with their wrong interpretations and limited knowledgeable minds.  We need more educated religious people to put our thoughts together. We cannot always depend on the religious leaders as they have overall knowledge about scientific sides of religion so we need specialized experts and PhDs whose thoughts and studies are taken into account and respected in science area. Maybe religious authorities and scientists should sit together and discuss these topics thoroughly with mutual understanding and respect instead of mocking and slander about each other. The basic way of doing this is to first respect each other and not to exacerbate their ego and denounce, accuse and blame one another. We are all humans with different perspectives and we don’t have any right to belittle each other’s knowledge, thoughts and actions.

What makes me upset that some uneducated Muslims are speaking without thinking properly about others people’s feelings. And other uneducated ones are listening to these people and pay attention without thinking how accurate what he/she is saying and cheer for him/her and support him/her. And eventually their imprudent actions bring condemn onto all other Muslims and even more importantly religion itself, Islam. We even Muslims should listen to not who is followed much but who is the authority of this kind of subjects.  Without proper education they make their knowledge so obvious you want to say he doesn’t know what he is talking about.  We should show strong disagreement to those who talk recklessly about others and about the fields they are expert on so they can somehow understand what they are doing are not appreciated and may decide to listen more instead of talking more.

I am not feeling responsible for talking on behalf of other religions but as Islam is my religion, what some ignorant Muslims do is also affecting me and my life and I believe it is same for many people in different religions who are feeling worse because of the some imprudent actions their religion’s uneducated followers take. And I am saying this with a great sorrow but some malicious scientists are using the statements of these ignorant people as a proof for how primitive the religions are and make things even worse. Driven by our emotions won’t solve these problems, we should involve our brains and minds more and set our emotions aside for a while to think clearly.

Religions as opposed to what people think are down-to-earth studies. They have principles to help people gain more satisfying lives in both material and spiritual selves. It has disciplines from happy marriages to home and global economy, raising kids to effective learning, from healthy life to education, etc.  I don’t think it is delimiting our lives instead teaching us how to live a life which is worth being human. Animals know most of the things once they are born but we are not same. If you don’t teach anything to a human, he makes him become a primitive creature and he will eventually be harm to all human-beings.  That’s why we are nothing but below everything when we first come this World and we learn till we die because we have to learn to live a worthy life and this is exactly what religions try to do. They show us the appreciation for what we have and how to act properly.

So we need religion but cannot force everyone to have one. We can only show the goodness religion brings to our life but to make this happen we MUST understand and interpret religious studies properly, otherwise religions will be burden instead of enlightenment and we should always respect other believes and try to understand their thoughts and act properly and respectively. I hate people who don’t listen to others and respect but expect to be paid attention and respected. Whoever they are, whatever they believe, they are ignorant and thoughtless and will always damage the peace, friendship of the people and will bring no goodness.

– Tarik Guney

Taking It Slow

I’ve been sick for 5 days and as a sick person I prefer to move slowly not to use up my remaining energy. But I learned something throughout my sick days, Why was I so fast to do things in a rush? Before sickness, I was pursuing 4 books, learning new programming languages, reading articles and news for hours, working even right after I come back home and so forth and the odd part is I was trying to achieve them at the same time. What was I thinking? I am 25 years of age but considering myself still young but trying to reach somewhere quickly, learning everything? I was thanking to Allah as this sickness stopped me for a while and got me thinking.

If you try to fill all of your time with something valuable to you can consume your life and energy and doesn’t let you enjoy the present. Enjoying the time is a relative opinion so basically whatever you like to do is helping you enjoy the time but sometimes even you like it you must know where to stop and give a rest to your body, mind and soul. We are not robots and had better give some rest to ourselves to recharge our batteries. One of my experiences showed me that pushing your brain too hard to make it learn something is actually causing a gradual decrease of the learning abilities of the brain and once this ability decrease learning curve also decrease and learning is taking even much more time. I was reading a book called Brain Rules. I spent some time on how to increase the human cognitive learning abilities. The author of the book was telling – which is reasonable to me as well – the brain is not multitasking unit. It handles one task a time. You can compare it with a single core CPU with many threads. There are no parallel calculations. I am not really sure how brain can handle automated systems such as breathing, seeing calculations, hearing etc. but as to learning and focusing abilities we don’t have a multi-tasking brain. BUT exceptions are always there. So focusing one task a time will dramatically increase the learning abilities and satiate the learner.

I am now taking it slow. I help myself relax after a time of work. Pushing myself to my limits won’t work any more. Even when I am working I am taking it moderately and enjoying my time during work. Maybe I won’t be able to finish much work I did before but what I am doing it more efficiently now and I think this counts more. My experienced show me doing one thing with many errors is worse than doing nothing. Doing nothing might not break things but doing things which have error definitely break things unexpectedly. So working moderately slow prevents me from making mistakes that I won’t like fix later on.

What you can do for relaxing? Some people might say I read books, play video games, etc. OK, you should stop doing this and literally take a rest. You can take a quick nap especially during noon maybe before lunch time, maybe quick sight seeing or if you have a window, looking outside will also help. Relaxing should involve stopping brain activities and slowing down thinking.

My sickness taught me many things besides this: enjoying the pray. Why I am praying so quickly? Where am I reaching? Why am I so fast? Praying needs time and devotion. The reposeful feeling of leaving everything behind before starting to pray is worth of everything. What could be more restful than this. BUT as always it needs some practice to master on this behavior. Some time no matter what you do you cannot release all the thoughts and empty your mind but you should. Otherwise a true and complete relaxation cannot occur. There must be only one thing you should think about when before the Allah during prayer and it is the Allah himself. His supreme power, his mercy and what He means to you. There is a word for it from one of the great minds of our era: “I become servant/liege  and become free”.  Because a servant doesn’t think about HOW he/she should make his life, fight for his/her health, money, food etc. but WHAT he is assigned to him/her and the Lord takes care of the rest. The Lord ponders on the things which will assure His servants happiness, health and comfort and peace which are quite a lot of job.

I will keep thinking about what this sickness brought to me and made me realize. If I find any other thing I will write them down and share with you.

For now, forgive my typos or the parts you strongly disagree.